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Theres, Nothing but Blue Skies. To Show even if something bad happens, theres always something better coming your way.
Life is dull and boring, its endless and repetitive Go to school do homework come home, Repeat constantly. Am ignored by my parents basically all the time, No one wants to listen to me. I Hate my father hes a two faced asshole. When were in public hes so nice but when were at home constant yelling and physical hits, he won’t listen to logic. My mother is lazy and try to convince me of being guilty for no reason. Like her life is such a big fucking deal. My friends are okay they complain about there stupid problems they are like half of America Non considerate living in a dream of everything will be alright. Mean while in other country War,Famine and death and disease happens. Am young still a teen moving on to high school. Kid my age and below annoy me constantly with verbal Diarrhea of constantly talking shit and mimicking retarded people. Junior high was bullshit Why? because everyone there was constantly retarded the teachers were like they had down syndrome and over reacted to everything the Students would make fun and insult innocent people such as my self for no reason. I Don’t know why or whats going on Realization, General Anxiety and OCD has taken most of my health and life away from me and you know what I DON’T CARE! for some reason am thinking this depression is helping me to know things before they happen. To think outside and be very smarter than most assholes in the world especially the adults and kids. Now a days when something happens i don’t give a shit, My childhood thinking back on it makes me sick of the things that had happen to me. My depression will make me have that Special Blank Face void of all emotion. I Don’t express much emotion anyhow I Can’t even cry anymore. That is just gone when ever i hear something sad or learn about something there is no Feeling to it. I Have suicidal thoughts constantly or thoughts of Ending it all, if not for me to just Stop it and end the ones who have constantly annoyed me to never hear from them again. Fuck them. The only thing stopping me from it is my Beliefs, my Knowledge, My Heart which is empty and longs for another one to actually love me, If am gone no one could ever notice it, Am a waste of oxygen a waste of creation a waste of life am nothing anymore. I Don’t mean a single fucking thing, If i was to be gone tonight or whenever i choose who would care for me? not my friends not my family no one. My beliefs of Religion is what helps me be sane and my music helps me also. I Try to be alone but they still come at me. What more do you want? The fucking world? people make promises to me and they break them with lies like assholes. I Hate the world i hate everyone fuck the world. People in America are such money wasters and Self considerate assholes the fact i live in new york city people can be such assholes and the children be so fucking ghetto ” Hey nigga” Wat up my nigger. They don’t even know the back story to those words. People try to help me, i let my self open and all am telling are lies, The world is pitiful at this time Wars and disease, wow the Stock market crashed okay people have lost there jobs and what do most people do? Don’t give a fucking shit. People sit there and make jokes about 9/11 for no reason. People sit there and laugh at other kids not knowing what they have to deal with. The World, mankind is ruining its self into the ground If we can’t fight with wars and just go with peace why can’t we? Why can’t we just make a treaty and go to help each other. the world would be a better place Why can’t we? People are so ignorant i hate ignorant people i hate people who won’t listen to me. I Hate myself i wonder why am i even here? No one truly loves me am just an Enigma a fucking problem i want to take my Hate and Anger out on everyone who has wronged wit me. My depression has made me insane With Anger, Fear, No Emotions, Thoughts, Death and Suicide. I Don’t wanna deal with this anymore i want to die now just to crawl in a corner and stay there. My attitude that my friends know of as being Nice and Thoughtful to everyone is a Shadow of lies. People ask me whats wrong i tell them and its a lie.